Snow

I thought that blogging would be good for me. It gives me another chance to write, to tell, to be.

It is snowing today, I am rather suprised, this is already the fourth snow of the year. My day is unproductive, I have spent most of it next to window, glaring out to the white covered yard, or sitting here, at the computer.

I wonder what the next few weeks will bring me? I love suprises, but disappointment accompanies most of them.

Last night I only slept about 4 hours, I had trouble shutting my mind off as normal. I sit in the dark, listening to music, thinking. I wish I could run outside and lay under a sky full of stars, but then I remember that it isn't how it used to be. This is now. Now is close enough to a city for the stars not to shine at their full capacity. Now has too many responsiblities, too many problems and issues. And I remember there is no escaping now. I have to stand up and push on, God grants to strenght to keep moving, and when I have no hope, he comforts me. That is what I thought last night.

Schoolwork calls, this weekend will be crazy enough, with Drivers Ed., A meeting with a group of fellow students from history, and leaving town, there is no room to not have everything accomplished.